So, I haven’t been able to feel my arms for a few days. Since Wednesday, actually. It feels like they’ve gone to sleep, they’re
so numb that I went to do my hair and hit myself in the forehead, making me
even more uncoordinated than I normally am.
The most annoying part of that is how often you notice that you can’t
feel them. Every thirty seconds going,
“Oh, is my arm asleep?” in a goddamn loop.
Furthermore, when the numbness does fade, all I can feel is
this stinging ache that runs the length of them. I have arthritis in my hands, from writing actually, haha, and
this pain isn’t the same but it’s added to it.
Well, since I refuse to pay five hundred dollars to go to
the Emergency room and hear that I have ‘stress’ or ‘bone ghosts,’ (I am very
happy with the local ER, does it show?
They thought that I had stress when I had kidneystones, because stress
makes me piss blood, it runs in my family, we’re very talented.) I waited until
today to go to my doctor, and after bending and stretching me a few ways he
came to the conclusion that I very probably have a slipped disk in my neck
that’s putting pressure on my nerves for my arms. At a strange angle, no less, letting different halves of my two
arms go numb at the same time. I have
imaging later this week to confirm, but after he was done pressing on my head
and back, the pain he left in his wake makes me think that he was probably
right.
Which was a relief really, because once I told people about
my interesting problem they started guessing for me. I have heard that I have the Zika Virus, MS, BRAIN WORMS (looking
at you Seth.), blood clots, lyme disease, and I responded with the aforementioned
‘bone ghosts.’ Ha, technically I was
the closest without going over! He said
a slipped disk and I was ready to throw confetti.
But now I’m sitting here hours after my victory diagnosis,
groaning constantly from my necessary but painful bending, and all I can think
of is that I did this to a few of my characters. Kyo in his lower back, of course, but more specifically to
Calvin. The place in my neck is even
oddly the same.
Which leaves me in a tricky situation because now all I want
to do is write him, but my typo game has gotten much worse with this whole no
feeling/very awful feeling in my arms thing.
I feel like I should get him laid or something as an apology. Except that I like M/M and he’s homophobic
so he probably wouldn’t enjoy it.
Although that does also make it hotter for me if there’s a romantic chase
involved haha
Going to go chill with my bone ghosts and try to get some
feeling in my typing arms!
S. K. Hart
imjudt glad its not blood clots...
ReplyDeleteand on that note i will bring up what i did to andy and leave that right there so maybe your guilt isnt so directly linked... or maybe is more directly linked and i just screwed myself i honestly dont know...